Look, I know I’m an anxious person, but it’s been a long time since a phone made me feel a bit frustrated. I know that I’m still getting used to BlackBerry 10, so I’m not writing this as a final judgement in any sense, but I do have a point to make: BlackBerry 10 and its gesture system makes me anxious.

First, I have the red LED indicator yelling at me that I have messages. Then I turn on the home screen and I see all these notifications on the left “BlackBerry Hub” need to be addressed. Sure, it’s easy to move down that list and see my email, Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, BBM and text messages, but it’s also a bit intimidating. The notification system on Windows Phone makes me feel calm: I just see a small number of things that need to be addressed, and it’s easy to ignore them. On iOS and on Android, my notifications pop down from the top (and on Windows Phone, too) and then vanish away. With BlackBerry 10, though, I’m constantly swiping left to see everything, and then I *also* have indications on the icons for each inbox that I have other things to be addressed.

Clearly this is for business people, right? I mean, I can turn off these notifications, but I don’t want my phone blowing up at me every few seconds just because I have a LinkedIn message. I just don’t understand why I need a “Hub” with notifications and then a list of all the other applications that have reminders and alerts for me. It’s just notification overload.

It’s not just the messages, and maybe it’s because I need more sleep and I’m grumpy today, but the gestures are also frustrating. I thought I was supposed to be able to access BlackBerry Hub from any application. But I can’t, at least not that I can tell.

Like I said, I’m just getting used to the platform and I need to get adjusted to it. But my gut reaction is that I feel calmer using Android, iOS or Windows Phone. There’s something about BlackBerry that makes me feel like I need to be answering every message I get. Maybe that’s the point, especially in the enterprise, but sometimes I just want to be left alone.